05 Jul 09I got up very early this morning to watch the Wimbledon Men's Championship game live from London. The match lasted 4 hours (a tournament record).I was rooting for Andy Roddick, but Roger Federer proved himself to be #1 in Men's Tennis. While watching the match I did some cardio on the treadmill,(about 45 minutes). After talking to my friend who works at the doorman in the building, I ended up taking a nap in the afternoon. I woke up and went to the grocery store, came home and had some dinner. I lost my patience early in the evening yesterday and I called my friend to apologize. These friends have done so much for me and I wanted to make sure that we were OK. I see my doctor tomorrow. I know that I'll be weighed. I am nervous about what the number will be, but I need to let any disappointment or expectation go. I do see my therapist after my doctor appointment. Billy texted me to let me know that they are extending their vacation by one day, so I will not be training with him tomorrow morning. I'm looking forward to our meeting on Wednesday. 07 Jul 09 Today was not a good day. I could not fall asleep when I got home, and then I got up really early (for no good reason) when I looked up my bridge scores from Monday evening. I came in last place. It got me feeling like I could never win at bridge. That got me feeling pretty bad. It took me forever to get ready to the gym. When I did get to the gym, my back was hurting and did not want to be there. Billy was very understanding and patient with me. He countered all of my arguments about where I am at in my life right now. He switched up the training today and really focused on figuring out ways to alleviate and stop theĀ  back pain. I did feel better when I left the gym. Based upon Billy's suggestion, I walked home from the gym. It cleared my head, but my back pain came back later. So I took a nap after taking some pain meds. I felt better when I got up. So now I am up late again, and realized that I had almost forgotten to get this report to you. I have to figure out a way to ask for help with my bridge game. And try to be more gentle with me and my progress. 08 Jul 09 Thanks for a great meeting today. I had a good afternoon. I did some cardio in the gym in my building, then met my friends Chris and Fred for coffee. Then I went to the grocery store, came home and fixed dinner, and did some household chores. I did speak late to my friend Andrew Ramer. He recommended his former agent Howard Morheim. His website: have another fellow congregant from Sha'ar Zahav who might have some contacts. Would you like me to contact her?(I will be co-leading services with her during the High Holy Days in September)I'm still up at 12:41AM on Wednesday, so tonight will be a late night again. I am so grateful for your love and support. 9 Jul 2009 I ended up staying in bed longer than I expected. I did not get to bed until 330AM.I woke up and ate breakfast at 11AM.Then I got ready to see Billy at the gym. We had a good workout. I did a set of the exercises on my own. Then I went home and had some food before heading to the LGBT Center to hear a panel on creating community in San Francisco. People spoke their minds and hearts,(and one guy sang, he had a great voice)around how to create community and build bridges between the different age groups. I saw someone that I had not seen in a while. We had a mutual friend who passed away a couple of years ago. In fact, I found an old picture of him recently with that friend from the Castro Street Fair years before. 10 Jul 09 Today I went downstairs and did some cardio for 30 minutes. I am attending a bridge tournament tomorrow morning. I am nervous, but I want to go. I'm trying to have a good attitude, and remembering to have fun. Food was OK today. Wish me luck tomorrow! 11 Jul 09 I was pretty nervous when I woke up this morning, Not knowing who my partner would be at the Pro-Am Tournament, along with forgetting everything I had learned. It took about 30min to walk from the bus stop to the Masonic Lodge where the tournament was located. I saw one of my classmates, Michael, from my bridge class walking in the wrong direction. I asked him if he was playing today. He said yes, and that he was lost. We walked together to the location, where I found my partner Judy. Judy is a Yiddish grandmother, who gets a ride from her grandson to get to bridge. I was still nervous when we talked at the beginning, and after making my first mistake at the table I tried to relax. She would gently remind me of what mistakes I made, and also commended me when I did a good job or a good play. She was perfect for me. When the game was over, people were waiting for the final scores. I found out that I came in 5th place, and accrued my first Master Points. I thought I was not at that level yet, but I was so excited I told everyone there that I had earned my first Master Points. I can't tell you what that meant to me and my game. I even got a kiss from my partner! Michael, who I helped get to the game, walked with me up to the MUNI Stop. We had a nice chat and talked about our game. I am so glad I decided to go and try the tournament atmosphere again. I told Judy and another woman there that I hoped that we would play again very soon. I am glad that we had a chance to talk via cell phone this afternoon. When I got home, I fixed some dinner, and watched "Indiana Jones and the Legend of the Crystal Scull" I enjoy the movie, and it was a great diversion. Tomorrow I am going for a walk and also go to a Birthday party at 3PM for a good friend. I will email Jo-Ellen tomorrow with your contact information, and I hope that connection will be helpful for you. I am excited that your project is going forward. I hope that you enjoy the rest of your weekend. Thanks for reading my emails. 12 Jul 09 Today I went to a friend's birthday party. It was nice to spend part of the day with Ina and AJ. Then I went for a long walk. I stopped over at Andrew's. We ended up having dinner. He is leaving tomorrow for the Carolinas. I will miss him. He has been such a support for me during this process. I know that I will be in touch with him, but it will not be the same as if he was in the city. Maybe it's time to reach out to my other friends for support right now. It's hard to ask for help. Today the food was OK.I hope that you had a nice weekend.

Author: Kevin Johnson, 2009 Commit to Fit winner